His Profile

So we both met on Match and we are both back on Match....just not looking for each other.
He told me that he is moving on a few months back and saw my profile on match and so he is doing the same...then his profile disappeared so I thought he found someone...but wait, he is leaving this city in a few months to do his training in another city. So I searched his alias and found he is not looking for someone in that city and he is excited about the move.
I know you want to paint yourself as a happy individual but it hurt reading that line....

I cried for hours thinking how I could love him and he said he loved me to and he would never leave me....and he did just that. How he said he would stand by me, and he left me to stand alone.

In less than 6 months he is leaving this city and I cannot contact him because I gave him my word I wouldn't because I know his family would like that... but he can contact me. He wanted that I should contact him anytime I want and he would respond ...trying to be 'understanding'. But all I feel is hurt and abused. My heart has never been so hurt. It's almost one year and I am so hurt!!

The thought of him with another girl rips my heart into pieces. I cannot let a guy touch me without puking and he can move on and be open to meeting other girls....

Before I met him, I was a very confident, outgoing, happy individual. Nothing could hurt me or break me. I had never fallen in love. I saved myself for 'the one'.
I met him and it was like kismet. He was perfect. We clicked like I've never clicked with anyone before.

Then his parents found out about me and the nightmare began.
I know I should be glad that I saw that his parents and sibling are bad and it could have been worse, but why would god make me fall for a guy who is perfect with imperfect parents? Why would god bring a guy who has all the qualities I have asked for in a partner but have bad parents and take him away from me?

I love him so much that it hurts.
I pray to god everyday to bring us back but....is he listening and if so will he do anything about it or just listen and that is it?

Why can't I move to some other guy

I have told myself that he will never contact me, he has started seeing other girls more than six months after the breakup, he has never gotten back with a girl he has broken up with and he thought of this long and hard before he broke up with me. I know his family will never let him be with me and they will bully him again and he knows it.
Still my heart and soul screams why?! Why?!
I hate them for being so mean and him for not being above their influence...instead of drugs it's family bullying! I question if there is true and honest love between his parents, or his sibling with their spouse. I mean my folks got married because they love eachother and supported our relationship because all they cared was do I love him and does he love me. But his family is adament about keeping with the right race that they camaflouged with the one thing that made us different. Religion. But the way we practice it is what made us similiar. The amount of influence we want in our kids was very close...
I tried dating other people but after the first or second date, I never call the guy or respond to the guy's call because my heart and soul screams how dare I violate it by not listening to it...how much it hates it when they try to hug me at the end of the date.